If you really knew me.... kinda deep and a little baby related
You'd know that I'm struggling to get my photo business rolling. The hardships of having only one lens, an outdated/slow computer, very little time to take/edit pictures, a full time job on top, the fear of not being good, and not having much confidence in my work even though others say it is good overwhelms me at times. I find that when I push myself through these things I end up surprising myself and realizing I can do it. I need to get over that hill again.
You would know that I am not scared of being a new Mom, I feel like I was born with natural maternal instincts and have been waiting for this moment my whole life. I was that kid who chose to babysit on the weekends rather hang out with friends. I am actually more nervous about adapting to this new life. I'm scared of less time time/focus with my husband, not sleeping, lack of attendance to social outings, raising a baby while my husband is still in medical school, and more.
You'd know that the pregnancy was not planned, though after dealing with some health issues back in April and facing some new health issues over the summer and having to start a new medication therapy, recently we spontaneously tossed up the idea that we may want to get pregnant sooner than we planned since my health situation would make things more difficult. And my goodness, we definitely didn't think it could really happen or happen that fast thank you to those 4 glasses of wine. Now you can all go laugh at me because I wrote this post back in April, and now look at me, eating my words, haha!
You would know that I am already freaking out about how cold it is in Birmingham. I'm not one for the cold weather, so this will be a long ride. I have horrible circulation, so as my right leg is nice and warm, my left leg will be ice cold. I am already in trouble with Joel as he found the thermostat on 80 degrees this week. Oops.
You'd know that I love to travel and want to see the world. I often think about where Joel and I will live after he is done with Medical School, and I think "Oh wow... south Florida, Nashville, or the Carolina's would be beautiful," but then I get scared and think how hard it will be to start over again in a new place. It took about a year for us to appreciate Birmingham, and now that we're comfy, we're not sure if we could leave again.
You would know that choosing a name for our baby will be the hardest thing ever. I love unique/un-common but classic names. The minute I hear my favorite name being said just a little more frequently, I immediately develop a dislike for it. I also am strong willed on this topic and won't share my favorite baby names with anyone. It's like the rules in football, you don't show the other team your playbook.
That is all I can muster up for today folks. If you have any questions for me, you can ask me here, and I'll be happy to answer :)
Happy Thursday! Tomorrow is Friday and I'm so excited for the weekend already!