Have you ever made a big life decision and never looked back? Well, I/we did. Almost 3 years ago my husband and I chose to move to Birmingham, Alabama which is 5-6 hours away from our family and friends. We were excited, nervous, and scared. We did not know a soul and only had a few months to move, find a place, and start our lives. In the midst of our move we graduated college, got married, went on a honeymoon, and my husband began medical school. We've since made lots of friends, moved out of a teeny apartment and into a house, had a baby, and I began life as a stay at home mom.
While I was visiting home this past week I had a pretty emotional moment where I realized everything I had given up. It was during a stroll in uptown New Orleans' City Park where we fed ducks, let Scarlett swing, strolled in the park, took pictures, listened to a live jazz band, ate beignets, and most importantly did all of this with my parents. I went to use the restroom and on my way there I had a moment and the tears just started flowing. I was in the stall just so upset thinking how this would be my life right now. I'd be taking Scarlett to this park, meeting my parents for lunch, feeding these ducks all on a regular basis. I got back to the table and tried to keep it all in, but it was hard. I was enjoying the day and didn't want to upset anyone else. New Orleans is my home, and there really is no other place like it. The sense of true southern hospitality, live talent in the streets, good food, and sense of community is unwavering compared to other places I have visited. That is exactly why our transition was so hard in the beginning.
I texted Joel immediately and let him know about the battle I was facing and he made me feel better. We are truly happy in Birmingham, and since having Scarlett we've adjusted to life here in such a wonderful way. Before she was born we often felt disconnected, but doing family oriented activities and meeting friends with babies has made our life here much more enjoyable. We are so grateful for new friends who we've even become inseparable with, and they have made us feel like family.
It was a moment of truth, maybe a moment of weakness, and it was hard to go through those tough emotions. For a second I wanted to tell Joel, "Let's go back home for your residency" but I had to snap myself out of it and remember what our goals and dreams are as a family. We have no idea where we will be in a year and that is scary. Thinking that we may leave Birmingham, a place we've started a family at, and start all over again in a new state/city. I chose this life with Joel, to support him and carry him through his medical career, but it is not an easy road and I am still learning.
I know that God has a plan, and it is far better than the one I had in mind. I know we are here in Birmingham for a reason and wherever we go next will serve a purpose as well, but at times it is very hard to see, especially when you are strolling through your hometown on a beautiful day with your family who you miss everyday.
This was on my heart today and I felt inclined to share since it happened. Does anyone else have a relatable story? I am always inspired by other stories of people who are going through similar things.
Happy Friday and have a wonderful weekend!!